Prayer of Uncertainty

I am certain

Of my uncertainty

Of this I’m sure

I don’t know what to do

Or what I want

I’m sorry I’m in such a muddle

After half a century

One would think

I should be sure and certain

Yet truth be told

Now I’m on the down ward slope

I’m full of doubt and disbelief

I’m sorry I’m in such a muddle

Ancient Faith said

Ask and you shall receive

And so I asked and asked and asked some more

But I did not receive

I thought I had enough belief

I thought my trust was strong enough

But seems I must have had some uncertainty

I’m sorry I’m in such a muddle

Modern Sages advise me

To visualise and see

They give techniques to draw to me

What I want.

Yet what if what I want

Is not what I really need

And what if what I really need

Has consequences I do not see

I’m sorry I’m in such a muddle

I am confused and in a muddle

I am certain of my uncertainty

And my vague ambiguity

Would be nice if I could visualise

And draw to me a wealthy man

And happy job

Or did I mean a happy man

And wealthy job

Or was it the man who was the job

And happiness wealth

You see I’m confused and uncertain

I’m sorry I’m in such a muddle

And so I ask that perhaps

Within the next half century

You might un-muddle me

And grant me certainty and bliss